donderdag 31 juli 2014

Update: My life right now

Lieve lezers van mijn blog. Ik denk dat dit 1 van de verdrietigste blogpost word die ik ooit zou schrijven op mijn blog. Ik zat er eerst aan te denken om het niet te schrijven maar het is al bekend op facebook en mijn blog is toch een stukje van mijn leven die ik kan delen en jullie begrijpen dan ook mijn afwezigheid van de laatste 2 weken en misschien ook wel de komende weken. 12 dagen geleden hoorde ik het verschrikkelijke nieuws.. Mijn moeder heeft kanker. Toen ik het hoorde van mijn papa voelde ik niks. Ik voelde me leeg en dacht kanker? Dat kan niet.. Het gebeurt altijd bij iemand anders in huis. Vaak gaat het je eigen huis voorbij en denk je er niet aan, maar nu was het wel bij mijn familie en nog wel bij mijn moeder. Ik kan je niet beschrijven wat zulk nieuws met je doet.. Me moeder, mijn alles maakt het door en dat doet je zoveel zeer. Je staat erbij en je kan niks doen. Het enige wat we kunnen doen is artsen hun werk laten doen en bidden dat mama gauw beter word. Mama heeft acute leukemie oftewel AML. Ze was bloed gaan prikken met mij samen en de volgende dag meteen gebeld met u moet nu naar het ziekenhuis. Sinds die dag is mijn moeder niet meer thuis gekomen en 3 dagen later begonnen ze al met de chemo kuren. Heel moeilijk te bevatten en zo onwerkelijk wat er allemaal gebeurd. Je kan het niet verwerken want je hebt er geen tijd voor. Je leeft in een nachtmerrie die niet overgaat als je wakker word. Mijn moeder en mijn papa broer en ik hebben met de arts gepraat. we kregen de kansen te horen voor mijn moeder. 50/50 waren de kansen. Het is net een munt opgooien en kijken welke kant die opvalt. Hard en pijnlijk. Mama gaat ervoor en wij gaan ervoor.. Met veel steun van familie en vrienden gaan we de goede kant op. Ik zelf denk positief en denk mama word beter, Ik kan ook niet aan de andere kant denken. Het kan niet en het mag niet! Gister na 7 dagen intensieve chemo is de 1e chemo klaar. Het is bizar dat je denkt dat je 12 dagen geleden het verschrikkelijke nieuws krijgt en 12 dagen later de 1e chemo er al weer op zit. De arts kwam gister met een goed bericht waardoor mijn tranen van verdriet weer in tranen van geluk veranderden. Mijn moeder heeft positieve leukemie.. Positieve leukemie betekend dat je een milde vorm hebt die beter te genezen is. Misschien is mama na 2 chemokuren al klaar maar er zit ook een kans in dat er een beenmerg transplantatie moet komen en dan toch nog een 3e chemo er achter aan moet. Ik was al positief ingesteld maar dit bericht maakte ALLES anders. Mijn gevoel dat mama beter word is sterker. Niet alleen om de uitslagen van de arts maar meer om hoe mijn moeder is. Mijn moeder is zelfs onder de chemo zo sterk, Ik kan niet anders dan trots op mijn moeder zijn. Ze doet het geweldig en tuurlijk is ze ernstig ziek maar ik weet zeker dat mijn mama vecht en dan kan ik ook niet anders dan vechten voor haar en vechten voor het gezin dat we hebben. Het komt goed. Daar gaan we voor & mama als je dit toch stiekem leest in het ziekenhuis op je ipad. IK HOU VAN JOU 

woensdag 16 juli 2014

Outfit; Gestuz jacket

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Ph. Bruce Mangal

Lovely readers, This is such a story.. I was so stupid. My boyfriend and i made these photo's by a train station. I was sitting on the side of the rails and we werent paying any attention if there's a train coming. We were making shots and then the train was coming. We diddnt see the train and then the train made a trumpet noise and my boyfriend and i were in shock. We made it in time so my legs werend chopped off and then the railway guards were coming to us a little bit angry cause they thought i wanted to kill myself. So i was like im really sorry and i diddnt mean to scare you. He really was in shock. I felt a bit sorry cause all i wanted to do was make a good outfit photo. But the results are cool right? haha I never do it again though. Oke about my outfit. How cool is my new long bomberjacket from gestuz? I went to see my friend eva at her lovely store AT EVE'S (link) and i saw this jacket hanging there and i thought YOLO lets buy the jacket. So now its mine and im so happy with it. Also wearing my amazing new watch, love the all black look with a golden twist in it. Let me know what you think of my look. Lots of love Cheek Mirjam

* Bomber jacket - Gestuz from at eve's ( Link ) * Jeans - Only * Shoes - Nelly.com * Hat - New yorker * Sunglasses - Zerouv.com * Blouse - H&M * Watch - Cluse ( HERE ) * Necklace - H&M 

dinsdag 15 juli 2014

I Love you

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Enough said.

Love Cheek Mirjam

vrijdag 11 juli 2014

Outfit: Orange color

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Ph. Bruce Mangal

Hey loves, Im in so many colors today. I know the netherlands lost the world cup but im still in love with the color orange. Bought this monki kimono a few months ago and now was the time to wear it cause it's so hot in holland now! I made the combination with an orange skirt from H&M. I think this skirt is 3 or 4 years old i have it for a while now. Did you also noticed my statement necklace? I love him, The necklace is so sparkly and i think it's one of my best necklaces. I got this one from the webshop fashion walhalla (link) They have so many cool stuff so if you like fashion.. check it out! Im also really pleased with these photo's. I took them yesterday evening when it was so dark and i thought oh menn they really gonna suck so bad but they are actually pretty cool. Love the colors. Im gonna do my hair today.. New extensions, a bit fuller and longer so im excited. Let me know what you think of my look. Loads of love Cheek Mirjam

* Skirt - H&M * Kimono - Monki * Shoes - Jeffrey campbell * White croptop - New yorker * Necklace - HERE * Hat - The market * Watch - Fossil * Sunglasses - Zerouv.com 

woensdag 9 juli 2014

Outfit; Your my sunshine

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Ph. Bruce Mangal

Dear readers, I heard so many of you say : Mirjam you are wearing to much black lately. So that's the reason for my pop of color in this look. I have to say you are right.. I really love black lately and im wearing it all the time but when i see this i have to smile. I really like the photo's and i really like the look. Im so happy with my boyfriend cause he's taking me to places ive never been to make cool outfit photo's. First i was so standard.. i was always at the same place and now i see how boring that is haha. Oke about my outfit. Im wearing my new kimono.. It's not new cause i bought it in deutschland a few months ago but im wearing it for the first time. The kimono is from primark and it was 12 euro's or something.. It's such a light fabric and the colors are amazing. I havent seen this kimono hanging in the dutch primark store but maybe i was blind! Im also wearing a light pink croptop from the newyorker. Amazing croptop for a good price. Im gonna run now let me know what you think of my look. Lots of Love Cheek Mirjam

* Hat - The market * Sunglasses - Zerouv.com * Shorts - Monki * Croptop - New yorker * Shoes - Asos.com * Kimono - Primark * Watch - Fossil

donderdag 3 juli 2014

Outfit; Monki it is

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Ph. Bruce Mangal

Hey loves, These are not the best outfit shots. Wasnt happy at all seeing them but i couldnt make it better. It was not my day i guess haha! I want to show you my new coat from monki. REALLY it's the best coat evurr! I was in utrecht and saw the monki store and i just had to check the collection out. SALE everywhere and really im not into sales at all. Dont like it ive been there done that.. I really love new fresh collections so i went to the non sale department and saw this beautifull oversized coat hanging there for 50 euro's! It fits like heaven and the fabric is amazing. Also bought this plaided blouse.. I always wear my red blouse on my waist and i thought it was about time to change it up a little bit. Really love that store, it's unique and that's what i love. What you girls think of my new shoes? These chunky boots are from asos.com! Love the heel and the grunge look. Looks cool under every outfit! Let me know what you think of my look. Lots of love Cheek Mirjam

* Sunglasses - Zerouv.com * Top - Primark * Shorts - H&M * Shoes - Asos.com * Blouse - Monki * Coat - Monki * Hat - The market 

dinsdag 1 juli 2014

Outfit; 010714

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Ph. Bruce Mangal

Dear readers, Today im wearing my new jeffrey campbell coltrane boots. I already had this one in distressed leather but i didnt like the material and the sole was made of foam and they look so old already. I saw this boot at fanny lyckman and victoria tornegren and i really wanted this jc boot. Also real leather but these are called the pattent ones. The sole is 10 times better and they look so beautifull. I think the size is a little bit off. I have size 39 and when i walk i feel my toe hit the front a little bit. Not painfull but i think i need to break them in. But i also ordered size 40 but that one is way to big. So im gonna walk a lot on the 39 and hope that they getting a little bit bigger. Im free today, so im gonna chill now and relax a bit let me know what you think of these new photo's and my outfit Lots of love Cheek Mirjam

* Shoes - Jeffrey campbell * Jeans - Dr.denim * Blouse - Newlook * Sunglasses - Zerouv.com * Top - Choies.com * Hat - H&M * Rings - Primark * Watch - Fossil